ベラミス - her epic journey of her soul

Chapter 3 A memorable weekend

"She's alive ???" Exclaimed Kugo, now at a remote outpost at the edge of the galaxy.

"Yes...I want you to know it". Dr. Kitty replied.

"How's she ? Is she OK ? " An excited Kugo asked.

"You will have to find out yourself..." Dr. Kitty smiled at the other side of the visual monitor.

Then the communication session ended.

Kugo turned around and Djorgo was smiling.

"What's that smile suppose to mean ?" Demanded Kugo.

"Hmmm...... ever since you thought Belamis blew herself up... you talked less crap, and more often you are serious....."
"What is that suppose to mean then ?"

Djorgo grinned, "You are the only one that knew she would sacrifice herself...you went after her....you cried for her...not just for loosing a friend...."

"..every month you pay a visit the the Great Planet, placing flowers at her make shift tomb... white lilies... purple peony..."

"What are you getting at!!!!???" Kugo was blushing ...

"Even the Princess noticed....that day, the way you looked at her, and she looked at you...the way you talked to her.... hahahaha..."

"She's a very good friend...!!!"

"Yeah yeah yeah... V-E-R-Y G-O-O-O-D friend..... combat partner...and more..." Djorgo replied with a sly smile"....the first day you met her you already cared about her a lot!! hahahaha"

"She is a virtuous person, a fine warrior.... I respected her...I was glad she is alive now...that's all it is...." Kugo said.

"Oh.....ho ho ho.... a scrapbook full of drawings of her sword, her cape, her helmet, her jet, her faces...."

"You son of a bitch!!! You looked at my scrapbook ????!!" Yelled Kugo.

"No..no..no....I didn't sneak up and peek at them....you left it wide open in the control room...and when I returned it to you your face blushed...hahahahaha".

"So what ?!!!" Kugo yelled.

Djorgo cleared his throat, then straighten his face and said, "Look, you don't get to meet a girl like that in this vast cosmos that easily!!! Now you even have a second chance after you nearly lost her!!!"

Kugo was speechless.

He started to recall their first encounter, their initial opposing battle when Belamis was the Captain of the enemy army, that last time she was fighting alongside with him. The day she nearly died, they actually talked.....

"I was always wondering....why is she always on my mind....even from day one I met her....I can't help thinking of her....and felt a heart ache..." Kugo thought to himself, as he recalled that day Belamis flew on her jet towards the monster.

Kugo signed....He regretted that he did not go a step further to stop her, and he secretly wished he realized that earlier, and he would not have let her go....

"You are a lucky guy, my friend." Djorgo said.

"???"

"You are the only man in her heart. You are the only person that she will open up to.. her heart belongs to you already. Even the Princess knew it".

Kugo stammered.."I...I...."

"Come on, lover boy, if you let her go this time you'd be the biggest fool of the entire universe ...hahaha..."

"Stop it!! Jerk..." Kugo shouted. His heart was pounding....."Belamis....Belamis..."

"Just go, a few days without you is no problem....I'll tell the others when they are back..."

"Don't...!!!"

"Don't what ? I am saying I will tell them you are taking a few days off..that's it!"

"Thanks!" Kugo signed...

"Don't thank me...".

Kugo was in his probe, about to switch to warp speed.

"Hey lover boy...stay tuned...I will find you a few dating tips in my computer for you! You are a rookie in dating...hahahaha" Djorgo said in the transmission.

"Knock it off!!!" Kugo snapped. "Thanks....Djorgo".

"Good luck this time, friend. Even I think she's a fine girl....you two fought when you met...neither of you won..you are her best match... and she deserves a man like you..."

The probe switched to warp speed and was dashing through hyper-space. It will be at least 2 days to reach Earth.

"Damn the warp speed!!!!" It's too slow for Kugo.
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Bang! The door flung open.

"Where's she ?" Demanded Kugo.

"Who's 'she' ?" Assistant Professor Dodge replied with a sly smile. Even Dr. Kitty giggled.

Dr. Kitty, "Easy, she is working as a volunteer at a orphanage. She comes back to sleep during weekends..."

"Where's the place ???" Kugo cannot wait ....

"You just slam right in like that ?" Dr. Kitty smiled and said.

"Oh....oh..." Kugo was embarrassed..."Yeah...yeah...how ...."

Dr. Kitty had knew Kugo had a crush on Belamis, and Kugo's look was unmistakable.

Kugo treated the Princess as more of a sister who he would protect, but Belamis was a different story. Kugo was confused about his feelings towards the two women, until that fateful day, when he didn't stop Belamis in time, he knew he lost more than a good friend and combat partner.

Kugo in deep thought...

"Ever since that day...I kept thinking of her.... I cried at her tomb too...what is that feeling of lost and emptiness ? Her face is always coming up in my mind....I cared about her a lot....Why is it I am the only person who realize that she's was going to sacrifice herself?...."

Kugo didn't know, from the very beginning they met each other, Kugo was attracted to her, and she was in his heart too. Kugo was connected to her.

"That's the place". Dr. Kitty replied.

Kugo looked up the hill.

"Up these steps... I have told the lady here, she will not tell Belamis that you will come... you can watch her from afar..." Dr. Kitty said.

Kugo went up the steps, and carefully stay out of Belamis sight as he watched from a distance.

He thought he saw an angel or a goddess. It was the same Belamis as he knew it, beautiful, long black hair, blue eyes like the heavens, a confident look, kind...this time was more.


Before this Kugo always saw Belamis in her fighting suit, all the time in her helmet..."Her hair...so beautiful.." As he watched Belamis long and pitch black fine hair, hanging to her shoulders...Belamis was also often in a soldier like demeanor before... now Kugo saw her gentle and mellow side..

He also remembered her tough demeanor, pushing him and others away, not letting others into her.

"Belamis...you are warm-hearted, kind, loving and needed love inside....but why did you push me back ?" As he recalled on the Great Planet, she turned down his invitation to go together...

"Perhaps...she thought I loved the Princess.. perhaps..." Kugo recalled, looking at Belamis.

"Belamis... please, don't push me back again...." Kugo said to himself, as he watched.

"Hahahahaha" she laughed with the kids...

Kugo thought that he saw Belamis glowing.....as he watched her played with the children, doing the chores at the orphanage, carrying the disabled children around...

"She was such a kind and compassionate girl....I knew right at the beginning...that was what my hunch told me.. she was not that ruthless and evil captain..." He recalled slowly..."She was just...just angry and sad ...about her suffering...".


He kept on watching, careful not to let Belamis spot him, and smiled at every move of her.

"She so kind and generous, and full of poetic justice..." He recalled several of their encounter...Belamis stretched her arms, children jumped on and hang from her strong arms, each of her arms was supporting 5 or 6 small children...

Kugo thought, "She was kind and gentle....that is Belamis..."

Kugo was very happy as he watched Belamis, and he wished he could just keep on watching Belamis like that forever.

Belamis cleaned the houses, wiped the floors, and in the old man's shed she kneel on the floor and mobbed it with her hands, then she was on the fields working...

Kugo watched...and the he watched the more he loved her...

It was an uneventful day, Belamis was about to head back to the research facilities, as she walked to the steps a person shook her emotions..

"Kugo...?"

It was no other person than Kugo, waiting for her. Kugo was in uniform, not in cyborg armour.

"Look....a guy is waiting for Belamis..." Some children whispered, as they watched Belamis walked towards Kugo...."He's handsome..."

They stood face to face, gazed at each other. Belamis emotions were violently surging, her eyes glittered..with tears in it, but she would cry.

"How...how are you ?" Kugo finally blurped...

Belamis smiled...her eyes still in tears, that question was both easy and difficult to answer, but she saw the caring eyes of Kugo, and was deeply touched.

"I am good...now..." She said, smiling. "You are in the army ?"
"At the outpost, serving as a lieutenant...."

Belamis walked towards Kugo, then both turned together towards the steps almost in perfect sych, then they held hands and walked side by side...Belamis hold Kugo's hand tightly, Kugo hold Belamis' hand tighter...

"Now ..you are not fighting.. that's the real you..." Kugo thought.

"Wooooh.....her boyfriend!!" The children exclaimed....

The pair walked slowly down the steps. The moment of their togetherness was beyond words.

The first time they hold hands, instead of shaking hands as friends.

Neither said a word as they descended down the 1000 steps, but they looked each other in their eyes.

Belamis felt heavenly.....her eyes beaming....

"I finally can meet Kugo as a woman..." She thought, as she believed she lost all her cyborgness.

As they got to the bottom, Belamis said, "Where are we going then ?"

Kugo stuttered..."Er..er..."

"You used to talk non-stop", smiled Belamis.

"Yeah...I know a place!" Replied Kugo.

Kugo of course check this place out just before he came to the orphanage to pick up Belamis. This was his first date with a girl too...thanks to Djorgo's tips...

Kugo took Belamis to a seaside fair, where it was traditional Japanese festival. They strolled along the stalls, watched road performances, watched the fireworks, played at some games...laughed wildly...

After they spent time at the fair, they took to the seaside, sat at a rock, and gazed at the fireworks.

"They looked like explosions..." Said Belamis.
"Are you OK ?" Kugo was worried that it might bring painful memories back.

"Funny.....they were so beautiful now..."
The two gazed at the skies.

Belamis then turned her eyes to the sea, and said, "...its so beautiful...and great to be alive...."

Kugo looked at her, and put his arm round her, and said, "Belamis...", she looked at her eyes, blue as the dark blue night key, and asked..."Why...why did you do this...? You didn't have to...."

Kugo was recalling the months he visited Belaims make shift tomb at the Great Planet. He spent hours beside the little tomb, bringing with him white lilies, purple peony...to match the colors of Belamis' outfit...

For countless days Kugo asked the same question..."Why...why did you do this....???" He shed silent tears as he sat before the "tomb" for her...

Belamis looked at him, and slowly replied..."At that time.......I had lost all will to live....I had a lot of heartbreaks....and when I saw Princess came to you...I thought I would never have a place in your heart..."

She remembered before she flew to the photon monster she took her helmet off and let her long hair visible...a display of her womanhood....

"I only wanted to die...and hope you remembered me forever...."

Kugo kissed her...and said, "Please....promise me... don't ever do that again..." He was referring to her act of sacrificing herself.

Belamis eyes was welling with tears and looked at Kugo.

"I remember how you flew behind me...calling at me to turn back..." as she recalled her struggles...

"At that time I could not find a reason to go on....there was too much miseries..." Her voice was shaking, eyes welling up in tears.
"But fate was kind to me this time..."

"My fighter was on fire... then it exploded...the explosion sent me flying away....I was knocked unconscious..." Belamis said.

"All of us were focusing on the photon master....we didn't notice...." Kugo added.

"I was hit by the blasts of the photon master....but the vital units of my cyborg body was not damaged...so I didn't explode...." Belamis said.

"You are a good person at heart.... moreover you have a spirit that refuse to die... I know you won't just die like that......." Kugo replied.


Belamis looked Kugo into his eyes, and said, "I promise...I will not leave you like that anymore......after drifting in space alone...without you.....I cannot imagine being without you..."


Kugo was touched, hold her hand, Belamis hold his and hold hard, Kugo said, "That is a promise... you are a soldier and a fighter! You have to keep your words!"

Belamis laughed.

They stood up and walked around aimlessly, just being together for them after death nearly parted them makes the moment precious. They then sat down at a bench.

"I'm tired..." Said Belamis.

Kugo looked at the night sky, then suddenly he found Belamis rested her head on his shoulders. She was asleep.

Kugo smelled Belamis long fine hair, stroke it, this was a moment beyond words.
"It smells good..." Kugo murmured. There were also the smell of sweat on her...she had been working all day.
"She is flesh and blood now...a woman..." Kugo put his arm around her....then he felt her left shoulder and arm. Belamis jacket was off, and something startled Kugo.

"A scar ????" It was the scar from the would Belamis sustained when she fought with the monster. Kugo saw it was a new scar.

His heart trembled...but dare not ask....then his heart ached....

"She suffered a lot...."

The scar triggered Kugo love for her, he hold her tight, then said, "Sweet dreams...dear..sweet dreams...".

"Her hair was long....". He watched them grew since their first encounter, from medium length just touching her collars, to shoulder length, then all the way hanging down to her back..

"She was alone all the time in space, who would tend her hair ?"

"I cut and braided them with my sword..." Belamis whispered....She was awake...and heard Kugo talking to himself.

"Of course...there's no place to get a haircut in outer space..."

Belamis bursted in laughter and opened her eyes.

"That's funny...." She smiled, her eyes beaming.
"If it gets too long, it would get in my way when I fight or when I put on my flight helmet..."

"I like that look when you wear it long down to your back....it's naturally beautiful..."

"Really ?"

They talked and talked all night, Kugo cracking jokes, and Belamis laughed...

Then they chased each other around at the beach...Belamis always outrunning Kugo...

Kugo suddenly picked up Belamis, hold her in his arms and ran.....he laughed...

Belamis also laughed... Kugo put her down...then Belamis chased the seagulls, and leaped up high....her hands touching the feet of the seagulls flying up high.. and as she fell from above, Kugo caught her in his arms, and he had a deep kiss on her... the two bathed in romance....


Then they sat at the beach, and Belamis began telling Kugo her stories.

Kugo, "I don't know who my parents were...."

"You are an orphan ?" Belamis asked.

Kugo nodded, and he told Belamis how he was also raised by Dr. Kitty.

Belamis took a deep breath.... thinking about the children in the orphanage. She looked at Kugo, put her arms around Kugo shoulder...

"Tell me about your mother..." Kugo said.

Belamis nodded.

"She...was the most beautiful woman..... at least in my eyes..... kind and gentle...I was a tomboy..."
Belamis lost in her memories of childhood..

"I was so much loved by her....I was raised like a soldier, I have a strong body, and she gave me a tender soul..." as she looked towards Kugo, and telling her little things about her mother.

"All was changed...when..." Belamis remembered the fateful days of her planets destruction, the monsters attacking, her mother's death, her friend died in her arms... and she told Kugo all of them .... holding back her tears ...

Kugo looked at her into her eyes..., and said, "I promise I will not leave you....never..."

Belamis eyes were teary...and then tears streamed out her eyes...

Kugo also had tears in his eyes and flowing...

Then Kugo kissed her at her lips....the two kissed intensely.....

Soon it was dawn.....the two didn't sleep. They strolled along, not knowing when or wanting to stop.

Then some music caught Belamis' ears..

"That was beautiful.....where was it coming from ?"

Kugo looked, it was from a street corner, a person was playing a guitar.

The pair walked towards the guitarist.

Belamis looked at the guitar, and said, "Can I try ?"

Kugo asked, "You know how to play one...?"

"It looks like those lute in my home planet..." Belamis remarked as she put her hands on the frets and the strings, plucking the strings....
"Yes...it is almost the same..."
Then she sat down and hold the guitar, and began plucking the strings with her fingers...
Kugo watched, again adoring her.
"Mother taught me this..." Belamis said...
She got the hang of the instrument, then slowly playing chords and tunes...and humming a melody softly and tenderly

Kugo was mesmerized and listened...."I don't know she can be so emotional and tender..."

Then Belamis whistled the melody along.....

When the song ended...she returned the guitar and was silent.

"That was beautiful....what is it ?" Kugo noticed that Belamis was disturbed...

"The song....was the last song I sang to mother....." Belamis replied....

Kugo put his arms around her, they hugged each other, each feeling the others body, their heartbeat...

Finally, Kugo must return to his duties.

"Goodbye..." Belamis said.

"We will see each other again soon...I will try to take days off and see you!" Kugo replied.

Belamis nodded.

She returned to her quarters at the research facilities... on her bed there was a new guitar, with a beautiful ribbon tied on it, and a red rose.

She picked it up, and found a note, with a digital recorder along with it.

The note read:
"I want to hear you play this...and sing to me... here are the songs... when I come back to Earth again, I want you to sing to me, you have to do this for me! Kugo"

Belamis smiled, and switched on the digital recorder, there were a lot of songs in it...she listened, picked up the guitar, and started playing....

Dr. Kitty heard the guitar playing, and Belamis humming along.

"She has opened herself up now...."

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"Monster ??? She was hurt by a monster ??" Kugo yelled....

"Yes....she tried to protect our facilities and the orphanage.." Dr. Kitty replied from the other end.

"Why...why didn't you tell us about the monster ???" Kugo asked.

"It's OK back on Earth, we have the Earth's cosmos fleet and armed force guarding us." Dr. Kitty said, "There is no immediate danger at all."

"Was she badly hurt then ?" Kugo changed the subject...he was more concerned with Belamis.

Dr. Kitty bit her lips, then said, "She was very brave. She tried to lure the monster away from people, and risking herself...."

Kugo was lost in thoughts...."It was the same Belamis I know...the same brave soul....not a bit of her changed..." As he remembered the times she braved monster's attacks when she fought alongside with him.

"She was hurt badly on her side and her left arm and shoulder.." Dr. Kitty added,
"but she is very strong and tough...."

"But she could not fight!!!" Kugo was worried...The last time he was with her, he saw with his eyes that her body was indistinguishable to human flesh and blood, and the scar told a lot about her body.

"When I met her, she was a space fighter with her sword, her jet, and her body was protected with armor...this time she was all flesh and blood..." Kugo said.

"Belamis is not the same kind of cyborg as you or Djorgo...her body is changing, getting stronger and stronger....she healed quickly from her wounds" Dr. Kitty said.
"She may not have her sword or her fighter jet with her, but it seems..."

"No....I can't let her risk her life like that!" Kugo said, as he stood up, "I have to go back to Earth!"

Djorgo put his hand on Kugo's shoulder, "Perhaps...this is what Belamis wants after all ..."
"Huh...?"
"She is a fighter, a warrior, one that will risk to protect people she loved....and Earth is now her new home..." Djorgo continued. “She have loved ones there which she wanted to protect …”

Kugo turned, and suddenly those image of her in the orphanage re-appeared. She was happy there, she loved the children...he also remembered her courage...not afraid of fighting even the most formidable monster...

"You know her well, and if you try stop her ......she will be REALLY mad at you.....I don't think this lover's fight is pleasent...." Djorgo said, "you know you have an unfinished fight... if you two fight it will be a war zone...hahaha" Djorgo chuckled....

Kugo nodded...,"You are right. If I were her, I would want to protect Earth, Dr. Kitty and others with the powers she had...she made Earth her home now...she will not let anything happen to Earth ..."

"And you know sometimes she would not listen to others...not even you...when she is determined ..." Djorgo added.

Kugo knew Belamis well. If she decided to do something she would stop at nothing...she had that kind of hard neck determination that was sometimes difficult... "She is very stubborn sometimes....that was charming too..." Kugo thought....

"..if she made Earth her home, she will protect it even at the pains of death..." as he remembered that horrid scar on her left arm, and of course how she would sacrifice for others.

"You don't have to worry, we are safe here on Earth." Dr. Kitty said, and she signed off.

"I don't know about others, but if it is Belamis, I will not worry at all..." Djorgo added, "She will do everything to protect Earth...and I know she can."

Kugo nodded, and thought, "Belamis...you take care things back at Earth...and take care of yourself...".


Remark:
Most Belamis' fans knew Belamis loved Kugo...and many believed from tell tale signs in the series, Kugo was also attracted to her...the misfortune of fate put them in opposing sides until late in the show, Belamis refuse to serve that evil forces. I, perhaps many viewers, had high hopes that Belamis would keep appearing...

Kugo and Princess Aurora's relationship was more of a subordinate obeying his superior, i.e. Kugo served the Princess, so often he had to obey her. The Princess could punish him by making his head band to tighten round his head.

However with Belamis he was much more relaxed, and could joke and talk a lot, and he was an equal with her.

This chapter echoed the theme of a short novel written by fans, obviously those who loved Belamis deeply, and those who wished she and Kugo could be together.

The novel depicted a sad Kugo bringing flowers to small tomb at the Great Planet. The tomb was created in remembrance of Belamis.

In this novel, Kugo revealed his love to Belamis, and he knew Belamis loved him, but regretted he didn't stop Belamis in time. Belamis was referred to as a strong warrior, superior at strategy, kind to those who lost their home planets, and was their worthy opponent.

The novel in the first link spelled out what fans all anticipated: Beramisu has never disappeared from the heart of Kugo...and the Princess Aurora was envy about this. She knew if Belamis was alive, she would be the one walking with Kugo...
クーゴの傍らにいるのは、いつもベラミスだったのだろうか

I expanded on this theme, and decided to write about Kugo and Belamis relationship, more than friends, but deeply in love with each other, and to a point that neither can live without the other.

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「她活著？」孫行者興奮的大叫。他被派到銀河系邊緣駐守。

「是的。我想你知道她消息。」吉蒂博士在通訊器中傳來的聲音說。

「她怎樣了？她可好嗎？」孫行者繼續興奮的追問。

「那不如你自己去看看好了。」吉蒂博士微笑道，然後中止通訊。

孫行者轉過頭就看見迪高在對他笑。

「你在笑什麼？」孫行者怒道。

「哼哼，自從那天，你以為比拉絲在大王星爆炸喪命，你說少了廢話、變得很正經…」迪高笑道。

「什麼意思？」
迪高笑得更加狡猾，道：「當天就是只有你一人知道她要犧牲自己、你追著她、又為她哭了很久…對你來說她不僅是朋友…」
「每個月藉故去大王星，送上白色的百合花、紫色的牡丹花去那個你為她立的墓碑去…」

「你想說什麼？」孫行者的面和耳根都紅了。

「連公主都留意到，當日你兩個眼目傳情、一起對話的樣子…她看著你的眼神…哈哈」

「她是我一個好好的朋友！」孫行者叫道。

「嗯，好一個『好好』的朋友」迪高笑。
「比一個好戰友更好的朋友…第一次你遇到她你已經很緊張她了…」

「她，是個光明磊落、勇敢的戰士，我尊敬她。她這次無恙，我很高興而已…」孫行者道。

「真的？一本畫冊全是她的面孔、她的劍、她的戰鬥機…」迪高笑翻了肚。

「你這臭傢伙，你偷看我的畫冊？」孫行者怒道。

「誰偷看啊？你自己把它打開留在控制室給我看到，我還給你時候你滿臉通紅呢…哈哈！」迪高笑著。

「那，那又如何？」孫行者怒道。

這時候迪高收起笑容，一本正經說：「在這個浩瀚宇宙，遇到她這麼一個女子已經不容易。你如今，在失去她後有第二次機會，就更加不容易！」

孫行者默然。

他憶起他如何第一次遇見比拉絲，兩人未完的決鬥，比拉絲成為敵人軍團的總隊長和他為敵，她如何省悟後和自己並肩作戰，在臨近大王星那天，兩人少有的可以一起談天…

「我一直都想，為何我對她一直念念不忘…第一天我遇見她未知道她是女兒身…我就一直想著她…想起她我的心會痛…」孫行者想起當日比拉絲駕駛她的戰機飛向怪獸同歸於盡，感到心痛。

他嘆了口氣，一直懊悔當時為何不盡力阻止比拉絲，他早點發現自己是愛她的話，就不會給她去的了。

「你是個幸運兒啊，朋友。」迪高說。

「？？？」

「你是她心目中唯一的男人，她只會對你說出她的心事，她的心已經屬於你的了，連公主都看得出來」迪高說。

「我…我…」孫行者張口結舌。

「你這次不把握機會，你就要成為全宇宙第一傻瓜的了…」迪高說。

「你給我住口！」孫行者道。但他的心卜通卜通的跳，心裡不斷只是想她的名字：「比拉絲、比拉絲…」

「你去吧。你走開幾天沒關係的。其他人回來我會說一聲的了…」迪高說。
「別對他們說…」孫行者驚道。
「我是告訴其他人你放幾天假而已，別緊張！」迪高笑道。

「謝謝你。」孫行者道。

「謝謝什麼？」迪高笑道。

孫行者跳到他的星雲艇，馬上開動，準備進入穿梭飛行。

「大情人，記得找我，我會從電腦找些追求女孩的秘技，你在追求女孩上是新手……哈哈」通訊器傳來迪高的聲音。

「別鬧了！……謝謝。」孫行者道。

「祝你好運。我也覺得比拉絲是個難得的好女子，你兩個不打不相識，兩個本領不相上下，你和她實在相配得很…」迪高道。


孫行者星雲艇進入穿梭飛行，但也要兩天才到達地球。

「這穿梭飛行他媽的真慢！」

孫行者心急如焚。

砰的大門打開，孫行者衝了進來。

「她在那裡了？」孫行者大聲叫道。

「那個她啊？你只是叫嚷，一點沒變！」杜杜教授道。吉蒂博士也忍不住笑了。

「你別緊張。她每天都在附近的孤兒院幫忙，週末會回來睡覺的。」吉蒂博士說。

「那是在什麼地方？」孫行者已經等不耐煩。

「你不是要這樣子衝上去看她罷？」吉蒂博士笑說。

「嗯…嗯…這個…我」孫行者又張口結舌，滿臉通紅。

吉蒂博士知道孫行者愛上了比拉絲，他這個樣子更加顯示他真的愛得比拉絲要死。

孫行者對待羅拉公主，是看她如自己的妹妹一樣愛護保護，但對待比拉絲是另外的感覺。只是孫行者弄不清楚他對兩個女人的感覺，直到大王星那次他看見比拉絲「死去」，他才恍然大悟，知道他不僅失去一個朋友和好戰友…

他邊走邊想。

「那天之後我不斷想著她……在她的墓碑面前我不斷的流淚…那種失落、傷感…我常常記起她的面孔、我很關心她…為何當天只我一個知道她要犧牲自己……？」

孫行者自己不知道，他們第一天相見，比拉絲和他已經互相被對方吸引了。兩人不覺心心相印。

「是這裡了。」吉蒂博士說。她帶了孫行者到了孤兒院的山下。

孫行者看著山上。

「到了石級盡頭就是。我跟負責的女士說了。她不會告訴比拉絲你會來…你可以在遠處看看她…」

孫行者慢慢上了石級，小心的在遠處看，避免給比拉絲看到。

他以為自己看見天使或是女神。比拉絲仍然那麼美麗，長長烏黑的頭髮、如藍天的藍眼睛、一面堅強自信，善良。這次他看見更多。

以往孫行者只看見比拉絲穿了戰衣、戴頭盔的樣子。「她的頭髮好美…」比拉絲一頭長髮披在肩上、隨風飄揚。從前穿了戰衣、戴頭盔的她像個軍人那樣雄糾糾的，但孫行者看見這時的她溫柔而和善。

孫行者也記得比拉絲倔強固執的性子，拒人千里之外，不對人透露她內心的心事和感情。

「比拉絲，你外表冷傲、倔強，其實內心是熱血、溫暖、善良、仁慈，和需要人去愛的。你為何拒絕我？」孫行者記得她拒絕自己邀請一道去大王星。「也許她以為我愛的是公主？也許…」
他一邊想，一邊凝視著比拉絲。
「比拉絲，你這次別推開我，你要讓我進入你的生命…」孫行者心道。
這時傳來比拉絲的歡笑聲，她和孩童們玩耍，正在和他們歡笑。

孫行者頓時感到一陣暖意，看見比拉絲好像發起光來。他看著比拉絲和孩子們玩、有在孤兒院幹活，然後抱著肢體殘廢的孩子走。

「她其實是善良、仁慈的女子，我一遇見她就知道她不是壞人。她不是那個人人以為是邪惡無情的隊長…」孫行者慢慢回憶。「她過去的不幸和痛苦令她憤世嫉俗而已…」

他一直看著，不讓比拉絲看到自己。「她其實慷慨、仁慈、充滿正義感和俠義心腸的。」他記起多次比拉絲出手救人、甚至幫助自己。這時候比拉絲又和孩子們玩他們喜歡的遊戲：她伸直雙臂讓孩子掛上去、爬到身上，左右手臂各自讓六七個孩子掛上去。

「仁慈和溫柔的比拉絲…」孫行者心道。

就這樣遠看比拉絲，孫行者已經無比快樂，他真盼望永遠可以這樣看著她。

比拉絲勤奮的清潔地方、跪在老人的小屋抹地板、在小園子工作。孫行者越是看見她這樣勞動，越深愛她。

這天平淡的過去，比拉絲打算回去研究所。她走向石級，卻看見一個人。

那個不是別人，正是她心目中唯一愛的男子，孫行者。

「孫行者……？」她不相信自己眼睛。

孫行者脫去再造人的盔甲，穿的是軍人制服，正在等她。

「有個男子等候比拉絲啊…」有些孩子說。他們看見比拉絲走向孫行者。「這男子很英俊哪…」

兩人面對面看著對方。比拉絲內心激盪，眼睛淚光閃動，但她性格倔強，不哭出來。

「你…你…可好嗎？」孫行者終於開口了。

比拉絲笑了。她眼泛淚光，不知道如何回答這問題。她看見孫行者眼中充滿關切愛意，心中感動。「我很好…你是在軍隊裡面？」比拉絲道。

「在銀河系外駐守，上尉…」孫行者答。

比拉絲走近去，兩人差不多一起轉身，然後手牽手一起走。比拉絲緊握孫行者的手，孫行者握緊她的手。

「你不在戰鬥的時候，那是真的你」孫行者心道。

「嘩……比拉絲的男朋友啊！」孩子們驚呼。

兩人沒有聽見，慢慢走下石級。雖然時間不長，卻有如在天堂那樣美好。

他們是好像情侶那樣拖手，而不是朋友間握手。兩人步下石級一言不發，互相凝視，比拉絲很快活，在孫行者眼裡面她好像整個發光了。

「我終於是用我一個女人的身份去和孫行者一起了」她心想。

到了石級底，比拉絲問：「我們要去那裡？」
孫行者頓時張口結舌：「嗯…我…」
「你向來總是很多說話的啊…」比拉絲笑道。

「我帶你去一個好玩的地方！」幸虧他有迪高的貼士。他來接比拉絲之前已經請教過如何令女孩開心的了。

孫行者帶比拉絲來到一處日本節日慶典的地方遊玩。

這裡兩個人遊覽不同的街頭攤擋，觀看表演、玩煙花和玩遊戲，兩人開心的歡笑著。

晚上他們觀賞煙花，兩人在海邊的石頭上坐著。

「那些煙花很像爆炸…」比拉絲自言自語道。

「你沒有事罷？」孫行者擔心她想起過去的事情。

「真奇怪，原來看來這些也很美麗。」比拉絲道。
兩人凝望星空，然後比拉絲看著海，說：「一切都很美麗…原來活著是那麼美好的…」
孫行者看看她，用手環抱著比拉絲身體，看著她雙眼，「比拉絲…」她那雙藍色眼睛好像深藍色的天空那樣「你那時候為何要這樣做？你根本不用去…」

孫行者想起多個月以來他常去到大王星那裡他為比拉絲立的墓碑那裡，逗留很久很久。他帶去白色的百合花、紫色的牡丹，這些顏色是比拉絲戰衣上面的顏色。不知多少晚上他不斷的問同一個問題︰「你為什麼要這樣傻、去犧牲自己？」孫行者會靜靜的在墓碑前流淚。

比拉絲看著孫行者，緩緩道：「我那時候萬念俱灰、感到生無可戀，在世上、宇宙，我已經一無所有、舉目無親、我所有的夢想都破滅了…當羅拉公主走過來…我又想到，我永遠不會在你的心裡面…」

當時她駕駛戰鬥機飛向怪物，把頭盔脫去、讓自己長長的秀髮飄揚，大概是她讓孫行者看到自己的女兒身和面目。孫行者初次見她面，比拉美斯也是沒有帶頭盔的，露出她的本來面目和表情。

「我那時候一心求死…我想，或者我死在你面前，你會一生都記得我…」比拉絲續道。

孫行者這時候深深親吻了她一口，說：「你答應我，以後都不要這樣子了…」孫行者是說比拉絲那次的自我犧牲。

比拉絲熱淚盈眶，凝視孫行者，說：「我記得你在後面飛來、不斷叫我回去…」她憶起當時候內心的掙扎…「但我無法想到任何理由我要繼續生存下去……」她開始哽咽，眼中都是淚水。「但命運對我很仁慈…」

「我的戰鬥機起火、衝向怪獸時候發生爆炸、爆炸的威力和衝擊把我撞擊、彈開了我、然後爆炸的衝擊令我昏迷了…醒來時候我全身重傷…」

「我們大家只顧看著那怪獸，沒有留意…」孫行者道。

「光子怪獸的射線擊中了我，但沒有傷到我的要害…所以我身體沒有爆炸、沒有死去…」比拉絲說。

「你本來是個善良的人，而且你和我一樣，都有一副打不死的意志，你一定不會那樣就死去的絕…」孫行者道。

比拉絲說：「對，如果我要死的話，最少死了四次。」

比拉絲除了在她故鄉星球死裡逃生外，她在拉色斯星球爆炸逃生、被牛魔王兒子生葬活了下來、和在大王星活了過來，真的有四次。

比拉絲看著孫行者雙眼，誠摯的說：「我不怕死，但我以後一定不會這樣就離開你…當我獨自一人在宇宙飄浮…我發現我不能沒有了你…」

孫行者深受感動，捉著她的手說：「你以後別這樣丟下我…你是個戰士，可要守信！」

比拉絲笑了。

兩人又起來漫無目的地一起走。兩人幾乎陰陽相隔而又在一起，都珍惜相聚的時光。未幾他們來到一張長椅子，又坐下來。

「我累了，有點睏…」比拉絲說。

孫行者看著夜空，忽然發現比拉絲靠在他肩上睡著了。

孫 行者聞到她頭髮上的味道，他輕輕撫摸她一頭長髮，感動無限幸福。「她好香呢…」孫行者還聞到她身上汗水的味道，比拉絲勤奮勞動了一天，全身出汗，沒有洗澡。孫行者心想：「她全是血肉之 軀，是個女人…」想著就用手臂抱著她的手臂和肩膀。比拉絲外衣脫了下來。這時候孫行者發現比拉絲左臂有東西，他心頭一震。

「她這傷疤那裡來的？」這是比拉絲之前和怪獸搏鬥後受傷留下的疤痕。孫行者看出這道疤痕是新的。

孫行者內心戰抖，又是心痛，但不敢問什麼。「她真的受了很多苦…很不幸…」孫行者更加憐惜比拉絲，抱緊了她，輕聲說：「好好睡覺罷…作個甜夢…」

「她頭髮很長…」他記得初遇見比拉絲，她頭髮只是及到領口，到長得披在肩上，然後到背上。「她一個人在宇宙流浪、怎樣打理那頭秀髮…」孫行者自言自語道。

「我用我的劍來自己修的…」比拉絲輕輕道。她聽到孫行者說話。

「那當然，太空那裡有理髮店？」孫行者笑道。

比拉絲笑了。「你真有趣。…頭髮太長，打鬥的時候不方便，戴頭盔也不便的…」

孫行者說：「你長髮的樣子，尤其長到背上，很美麗，我喜歡…」

「你說真的？」

兩人於是不睡，就在長椅子談天說地，孫行者說笑話逗得比拉絲不斷笑。

然後他們在沙灘上追逐玩耍，比拉絲總跑得比孫行者快。

「你給我站住！我要捉到你！」孫行者叫到。「哈哈哈，有本事追來！」比拉絲笑著說。

忽然孫行者一閃身，抱起了比拉絲奔跑，然後大笑。

比拉絲也開心的笑，孫行者放下她，她奔跑追海鷗，然後飛躍而起，手指碰到半空飛翔的海鷗。她掉下來時候，孫行者接著她，然後深吻了她一下，然後孫行者兩手舉起比拉絲，讓她伸直身體，好像在飛行一樣，不斷奔跑。比拉絲伸直身體，兩手張開有如翅膀一樣，海風吹拂她頭髮，有如飛行一樣，快樂的歡笑。然後孫行者放下她，然後兩手托起比拉絲的腳，比拉絲借力飛躍到半空，再落下地上，孫行者接著她，抱著她不斷旋轉，兩人沐浴在浪漫的愛裡面。

然後兩人坐在海灘，比拉絲開始說她的往事。她是加流斯星球軍隊將軍的女兒，如何成長、如何失去母親等。

「我沒有父母，我不知道他們是誰。」孫行者說。

「你是孤兒？」比拉絲說。

孫行者點頭，然後告訴比拉絲他如何給吉蒂博士撫養長大。

比拉絲長嘆，想起了孤兒院的孩子。她發現自己和孫行者兩人都經歷過孤苦的日子，她手臂抱著孫行者，凝視著他。

「告訴我你母親是怎樣的？」孫行者說。

「在我心目中她是最美麗的…仁慈、溫柔…我自小好動，像個男孩子…」比拉絲說。

孫行者唧的一笑。

「別笑！」比拉絲拍他肩膀，但面上甜蜜得很。

「媽媽給了我很多的愛……雖然我自小就被撫養教導得像一個軍人，強壯勇悍，她的愛，給了我一顆溫柔的心…」她看著孫行者，告訴他很多小時候和母親的往事。

「這一切都很好直到那時候…」她說到自己星球遭逢巨變，怪獸攻擊摧毀他們的城市、比拉絲目睹母親慘死、朋友死在自己懷中、她聲音哽咽，把這些傷痛都告訴了孫行者。

孫行者心想：「比拉絲原來親眼看到母親死去…這對她實在是很大傷害…」他看著比拉絲那雙藍眼睛，裡面全是淚水，說：「我答應你，我一定不離開你…永遠都不離開…」

孫行者親吻她嘴唇，兩人熱烈的親吻。

不覺天色已亮，兩人整個晚上到處走，沒有想過什麼時候停下，什麼地方停下。

然後忽然傳來音樂聲。

「那裡來的？很動聽…」比拉絲說。

兩人去找，發現路邊一個結他手在彈結他。兩人駐足聆聽。

「能不能給我彈一下？」比拉絲問那結他手。

「沒關係！」他把結他遞給比拉絲。

「你懂得彈這個？」孫行者問。

「它跟我故鄉星球一種六弦琴差不多…」比拉絲說著邊撥弄、邊試著，然後說：「真的差不多…」她坐下然後就用手彈起來，孫行者在傍邊看著出神。

「這是媽媽教我的…」比拉絲說，然後就開始彈出和弦、曲調，她口中輕柔的哼著歌曲。

孫行者在傍聽得著迷，心想：「看不出她感情如此豐富、又如此溫柔…」比拉絲吹著口哨、吹出一個曲調，曲調既哀怨但很動聽。

音樂聽了，比拉絲把結他還給結他手。

「真動聽，你那是什麼曲子？」孫行者問。

「那…那是唱給最後一次的歌曲…」她答。孫行者馬上抱著比拉絲，兩人緊抱對方，聽得到對方的心跳。

孫行者終於要走，回去銀河系去繼續駐守。

「再見…」比拉絲說。

「我們很快見面的…我一定多請假回來看你…」孫行者說。

比拉絲點頭。

別過了愛人，比拉絲回到研究所自己的住處，發現床上一個新的結他，上面有個蝴蝶結，還有支紅玫瑰。

她拿起結他，上面還有張紙條，和一具數碼錄音機。

紙條寫道：我要你為我彈奏這些曲，唱給我聽…我回到地球你要做這些事…你要為我做這事。孫行者字。

比拉絲笑了，她開動數碼錄音機，裡面已經有很多歌曲。她邊聽，然後就彈奏起結他。

吉蒂博士聽見她彈結他、輕輕的哼歌，心道：「她開始放開自己心懷了…」


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「怪獸？？你說她給怪獸打傷的？」孫行者叫道。

「是的。她是為了保護研究所和孤兒院所以受傷的…」吉蒂博士在通訊屏幕答道。

「怎麼…怎麼你們不告訴我怪獸的事？」孫行者問。

「地球這邊沒有問題。地球的宇宙艦隊和宇宙防衛軍都在，足夠保護我們，我們沒有任何即時危險的」吉蒂博士說。

「比拉絲她傷得重嗎？」孫行者轉問比拉絲的情況，他更加關心比拉絲。

吉蒂博士咬了嘴唇一下，道：「她很勇敢，她為了引怪獸遠離研究所和孤兒院，以身犯險…」

孫行者心想：「那是我一直認識的比拉絲…一樣的勇敢…她一點沒有變…」孫行者記起之前兩人並肩戰鬥，比拉絲也是如此奮不顧身、面對怪獸攻擊掩護了他，甚至願意犧牲自己。

「她左臂、肩膀和身體都受重傷…」吉蒂博士續道，「但她體質很強壯…」

「我們不能讓比拉絲戰鬥…」孫行者清楚記得兩人上次見面，他看到比拉絲身體根本和人類血肉之軀沒有分別，他看到那傷疤很清楚告訴他比拉絲的身體是怎樣的。

「我最初遇見她，比拉絲是戰士，她有劍、戰鬥機，戰鬥服和鎧甲保護…現在她只有一副血肉之軀！」孫行者說。

「比拉絲是和你與迪高不同類別的再造人，她身體正在蛻變著，變得越來越強壯、她受傷也很快復原…雖然她沒有劍或者戰鬥機…」吉蒂博士道。

「不行…我不能讓她冒險…」孫行者叫道，站起來：「我要回地球去！」

迪高雙手搭在孫行者肩頭上，說：「這可能是比拉絲自己甘心情願的…」

「嗯？」

「比拉絲是個戰士…她是一個會為保護所愛的人奮不顧身、怎樣危險也勇敢戰鬥的戰士。她已經把地球當作自己的第二故鄉，那裡有她所愛、要保護的人…」迪高說。

孫行者馬上想起在孤兒院比拉絲的模樣，她深愛那些孩童，孫行者又記得比拉絲的勇氣，她就算面對可怕的怪獸也毫不懼怕、會奮勇戰鬥……

「你和我都很了解她的個性。你要是阻止她，她可真的要惱怒你了…你們一對情人打起來我都要走避…你們不是有場未了結的決鬥嗎？你兩打起來真的誰也近不了身…」迪高笑道。

孫行者說：「你說得對。換了是我，我也會用我擁有的再造人力量，拼命保護地球，自己的家，保護吉蒂博士和自己愛的人…比拉絲已經當地球是自己的家，吉蒂博士是她最親的人…她不會讓地球或者吉蒂博士有任何損傷…」

「而且你也知道她那倔強的脾氣，她固執起來你怎麼勸，她也不聽的…」迪高笑道。

孫行者怎會不知道。要是比拉絲決心做一件事，她會勇往直前、什麼也阻止不了她。她那倔強固執的脾氣有時令人很為難。

「比拉絲有時固執的時候也真難纏……不過這也是她可愛的地方…」孫行者心想。「她現在以地球為家，一定會拼命保護地球、就算死也不怕的」他記起來比拉絲手臂上那道傷疤。

「地球目前很安全，你們不必擔心。」吉蒂博士道，然後中止通訊。

「其他人我不知道，但如果是比拉絲在地球，我會很放心的…」迪高道。「她會盡力保護地球，而且以我認識她的本領，她智勇雙全，絕對不是問題。」

孫行者點點頭，說：「不錯，比拉絲的戰鬥力是很強的，我是應該放心的。比拉絲地球靠你保護了，你要小心…」