ベラミス - her epic journey of her soul

Chapter 17 The scepter

Belamis saw the old Queen died and turned into a ball of energy an entered her body.

For a day and a night, Belamis cried and wailed in deep grief in her giantess form, with her body's wounds all open and bleeding, and she shook as she felt the immense pain in her heart -- it was like witnessing her own mother's death all over again, and that grief was unbearable to Belamis.

Belamis felt as though her heart was ripped apart over and over again, as she felt the wrenching pain in her heart, and she wailed and howled. Then Belamis started to pick up large boulders and toss it high to the air.

Princess Aurora remarked, "What ...??" The boulder fell and its sharp edge hit Belamis' chest and body, and she bleed.

"No...!!!" Princess Aurora yelled, and Belamis picked up boulders again and threw them up, and letting them hit her body. The boulders had sharp ends and the sharp ends hit Belamis' breast.

Belamis just repeatedly threw boulders up and let them hit her body,  again and again, wailing and weeping as she tormented herself.

Princess Aurora looked on and could do nothing, and she watched Belamis inflicting harm to her body. Princess Aurora remembered the old Queen once told her, the legendary Gariusu giantess loved the Queen of the Great Planet, and would rather her suffer infinite pain than the Queen die, and that's what Belamis was doing.

"It was like a primeval cry.... as if Belamis is asking the gods to give back the life of the Queen..." Princess Aurora thought. Belamis roared and howled on her knees, eyes streaming out tears. Then Belamis lifted up another huge boulder, toss it to the sky. The boulder fell and its sharp end hit Belamis' chest, and more blood flowed out of Belamis open wounds.

Belamis wailed loudly, body shaking, tears streaming out her eyes.

"Belamis..." Princess Aurora shouted..."Don't torture yourself!!!"

Belamis breathed heavily, body covered with blood, and looked at the Princess, and uttered in her low voice, "Queen.... mama...ma..ma.." as tears streamed out of her eyes, she wailed loudly again, the voice full of sadness and grief, and she yelled, "Ma.................".

Then Belamis put her fingers on her opened wounds and pulled to rip open her own flesh. The sound of ripping open her flesh was horrid, and Princess Aurora had to cover her ears..."No...."

Princess Aurora watched helplessly and thought,  "Her heart is torn apart..... she was extremely painful...." Belamis looked up to the heavens, and roared, and her body shook.

Then Belamis let out a long wail, the wailing sound was full of pain, before she finally collapsed, and returned to human form.

When Belamis woke up, Princess Aurora was at her side. Princess Aurora tended Belamis' wounds, and her body was bandaged. Belamis tried to move, but her wounds hurt and she moaned.

Princess Aurora said gently, "Rest well... you wounds are serious..." She put a quilt over Belamis.

Belamis looked at Princess Aurora, eyes glittered with tears and she closed her eyes to rest.

 After a few days when her wounds were better, Belamis put her suit back on and patrolled the Great Planet according to her duties as a army officer. She turned back from the giantess who freely expressed her emotions in complete innocence to the cool-headed and calm soldier who would not let her emotions out.

Yet Princess Aurora knew very well that Belamis was grieving inside, but Belamis tried to act calm on the surface, so that Princess Aurora would not worry about her.

Night and day Belamis stayed up, looking at the heavens. Princess Aurora knew she was still grief-stricken.

Belamis would not sleep, but spent nights kneeling outside the palace at the Great Planet, looking at the stars. In her heart, she was struggling. She was the Gariusu giantess, who protected Dr. Kitty, Kugo, and supposedly the old Queen. Yet at the same time the old Queen died for her.

Belamis struggled at this apparent contradiction, and shed tears silently.

Then news finally arrived from the Galaxy Union commander, "Colonel Belamis, it is time for you to return to Earth and station there as the Captain of the star fighter squadron."

Belamis nodded, and she looked at Princess Aurora.

Princess Aurora looked at Belamis, and saw in her eyes deep grief and sorrow.

"Belamis, you must not blame yourself...." Princess Aurora spoke gently, as she put her hands on Belamis shoulder.

Belamis said nothing, and bowed her head. Princess Aurora still remembered the sound of Belamis' wailing when she was in the giantess form, she knew Belamis loved the old Queen and still struggling from the deep sadness. Princess Aurora hugged Belamis tightly, and said, "I know how you feel....."

Belamis closed her eyes, and hugged the Princess back. Princess Aurora stroke Belamis hair and back, and looked at her blue eyes.

Then Princess Aurora took out something, and placed it on Belamis hand. It was the scepter.

"I am not going to keep this.. bring it with you so that you can have something to remember the old Queen...." Princess Aurora said.

Belamis looked at the scepter in her hand, eyes filled with tears, nodded, and said, "I will be strong... and fight to the end for the peace of the cosmos...." Then she boarded her jet and started the engine, and flew away in her jet.

In her jet, Belamis looked at the scepter, and was in deep thought.

She remembered to old Queen's tenderness, and also her love. She remembered all the test she endured as the Gariusu giantess, and how the old Queen transferred all her Galaxy energy to make her strong. Belamis felt her body was much stronger, and she even could see she had grown more muscular.

"...why...why am I the Gariusu giantess...." Belamis thought, as she recalled her own past, being adopted by General Conan. The twist and turn of her fate were inexplicable, and it all turned out that she had to be the warrior to guard the Galaxy energy.

Belamis looked at the vast cosmos, she was now the only Gariusu being alive in the whole cosmos, lonely and yet she had to shoulder such heavy responsibility, and suffer so much grief.

Belamis hold the scepter, and bowed her head, closed her eyes and wept silently. Her jet soon jumped to hyper warp flight mode, speeding back to Earth.

In just a few hours Belamis was back on Earth, and she headed to the Galaxy Union base to report duty.

Belamis saluted General Kahn. General Kahn said, "We will soon launch a major counter strike, and we need you and others to be commanders. Come, meet the soldiers at your command."

They went to a large room, General Kahn said, "These people were volunteers from many different places in the Galaxy, and they specifically wanted to be under your command."

Djorgo was also there, listening to the briefing, alongside with Belamis.

"Fellow comrade fighters, this is Colonel Belamis. She will be your commander." General Kahn announced.

Then several tenths of men and women said loudly in unison, "Chief Captain Belamis, we are proud to be at your command!"

"Chief Captain ?" Belamis wondered. This was her title when she was the commander at Giuma Legion and Lacets Legion.

"You have been kind to us before.... we are from Giuma Legion and Lacets Legion, we returned to our planets after you released us from our duties.." One of the men said.

"You are a fine commander and also one that cares about us.." Another of the women said, "..and you are chivalrous and brave, we came and join the forces to protect the peace of this Galaxy."

Djorgo listened, and thought to himself, "Belamis is really a fine leader, she could command such loyalty."

"When you alone challenged and fought with Prince Guyma's battleship... we are really impressed by your courage and sense of justice..." Once said.

"She fought with Prince Guyma's battleship...?" Djorgo wondered.

Belamis nodded, and said, "Thank you..... I have the duty to see that you are all safe under my command.... the Galaxy Union will soon arrange your assignments...."

The briefing ended, and Djorgo caught up with one of those men, and asked, "Did you say Belamis faced up to Prince Guyma's battleship all by herself ?" Djorgo remembered Prince Guyma was chasing after them.

"Yes.... we were.... pursuing Queen Cosmos.... our fighter planes surrounded the cyborgs... Kugo, and the other two... Chief Captain Belamis alone in her jet, stalled the battleship... braving the giant canons of the battleship....she hold back the battleship...so that Queen Cosmos escaped... until her jet was shot down.. we were worried about her.... she could have been killed..." The man recalled that battle.

Djorgo looked at Belamis who was leaving the room, and wondered, "She helped us previously all along... but told none of us anything about it..."

"Belamis was a good captain, she would not use us as human bombs against enemies.... under her command..... we felt dignified and also cared for... she cared about us..." The man replied.

"I am sure she is a caring and fine commander.." Djorgo said.

Belamis left the room, and according to the briefing, she would soon be on board a battleship, leading a squadron of fighters as their captain.

Djorgo came from behind and hailed her, "Hey... Belamis!"

Belamis turned, and said, "Djorgo... sorry... I was lost in thoughts..."

"I think...we owe you a lot of gratitude..." Djorgo said, "Even before you came to Earth... you have helped Kugo, me, Hakkah and the Princess.... without letting us know..."

"I am just doing what a honorable soldier and as a knight will do......" Belamis replied, "I nearly forget about these things...."

Djorgo replied, "But these things counts.... Thank you."

She parted with Djorgo and headed back to the research facilities to join Dr. Kitty there in her jet.

Belamis looked at Dr. Kitty, Dr. Kitty knew all about the old Queen from Princess Aurora, and saw in Belamis eyes deep grief.

"Come.... you should get yourself out of the suit and just take a day off.." Dr. Kitty said.

Belamis nodded, and she took her fighting suit off and wore plain clothes.
She took out the scepter belonging to the old Queen, and handed to Dr. Kitty, "This scepter.. belongs to the old Queen... can you keep it for me ?"

Dr. Kitty said, "It's OK. You can leave it with me, I will keep it for you."

Belamis went to the orphanage again. She went to the small shed where her master Nia used to live. The place was covered with dust, so she cleaned up the place, and sat on the wooden floor, looking at the old man's stuff. Tears rolled from her eyes....

Belamis lost a lot of people who loved her, her parents, her dearest friend Medona, Shierus, old Nia and also the old Queen.

She sat there looking at the shed, and signed. Then she stood up and headed to the orphanage.

As before, the children welcomed her... surrounded her. Belamis smiled, only this place could give her joy.

She slept in the shed and spent time in the orphanage. Belamis looked at the vulnerable children, and also the people on Earth.

"The people... this planet.... all I can repay for the joy and happiness I owe them.. is to protect them with my life..." Belamis thought, as she gazed the setting sun.

Then suddenly the transmitter she was wearing sounded an alarm...

"Attacks from monsters... at the research facilities!" Belamis ran down the hill, and then suited herself up. She summoned her jet and leaped into its cockpit, and headed to where the attack was.

There a gigantic, dinosaur like monster was spitting out flames, tearing around the town. Belamis leaped from her jet, drew her sword and rode on her space bike and started to attack.

"Electro-Bolt!" Belamis yelled, and the monster was hit, and deterred from proceeding to a building. The monster turned to Belamis, and spewed out flames at her. Belamis dodged and turned to the monster, shooting out EM-bullets.

As she was fighting, suddenly Belamis thought she heard a sound, "Help...!!!!"

Belamis steered her space bike around, and looked, "What is that sound...?"

It was the voice of a girl, crying for help...

Then she thought she heard it... "It was not a voice to my ears..... it's like..." Belamis thought...

Belamis hunch drew her attention to a building on fire. Belamis steered the bike nearer and that hunch was much stronger..

"Someone was trapped..." Belamis thought. She leaped into the window of the burning building from her space bike, and ran into the burning building.

Belamis looked around, and the same voices echoed in her mind, "Help.....!!" Then Belamis saw a small shadow amongst the rubble behind a fallen pillar, the room was filled with smoke, and flames were spreading. Belamis ran over, and saw a small body huddled at a corner, covering with a wet blanket. Belamis immediately picked the small body up with one arm, then took her cloak off and covered the person. Her cloak was made of materials that was fireproof. When one hand holding the person, Belamis ran to the window and jumped out.

It was six storey high, and Belamis landed on the pavement, then she saw the monster attacking. She took the child to a corner, and said, "Wait here for me..."

Belamis then leaped to her space bike and then charged the large dinosaur, and yelled, "EM-thunder". Her sword shot out strong blast of EM energy, hitting the monster. The monster was hurt, and it lashed its large tail, hitting Belamis space bike. Belamis fell to the ground.

"Arh...." Belamis moaned in pain, and she struggled up. There she saw the monster was heading to the small child she just rescued. Belamis ran forward, shooting EM-bullets, the monster turned back, then raised its foot and stomped on Belamis.

Belamis narrowly escaped, and fought back with her sword shooting EM-bullets. Then Belamis leaped up and poked the monster at one of it eyes, the monster hit her with its front paw, sending Belamis crashing to the ground.

"Arh...." Belamis struggled to stand up, and the monster stomped on her, crushing Belamis with its great weight.

Dr. Kitty arrived and saw Belamis was under the onslaught.... "Why isn't she transforming to the giantess form ?" Then the monster turned to Dr. Kitty

Belamis saw that, and thought ."No!!" She struggled up, and shot another EM-thunder at the monster, drawing its attention to her again.

Belamis then leaped onto her jet and shot beams of laser from her jet at the monster, but the monster was tough.... Belamis leaped out of her jet and weld her sword, slicing one of the monster's hand off, the monster growled in pain, turned and left the scene.

Belamis stood, breathing heavily. She looked at Dr. Kitty and saw Dr. Kitty was safe, so she breathed sign of relief.

Belamis then went and found the small child she saved. Belamis took her helmet off, then removed her cloak and the blanket covering the child.

There a face of a young girl, around early teens, appeared, looking back at Belamis.

"Medona...???" Belamis gasped. The young girl looked very much like her best friend back at planet Gariusu.

Medona and Belamis grew up together. They attended same schools, played together. Belamis was always the stronger one who protected Medona, and Medona was the tender on that comforted Belamis when she was troubled.

All those memories flashed back at Belamis.

Belamis hold back her emotions, and she knelt down, so that she and the girl was eye level. The girl looked at Belamis, eyes filled with kindness.

"What's you name...?" Belamis asked.

The girl opened her lips, but no sound came out of it. She was mute.

Belamis looked at her, and said, "It is OK... we are safe now.."

The girl took Belamis right hand, and wrote on her palm the sound of her name.

"Me..do... ra..." Belamis read... and thought..."sounds so much like Medona..." Her eyes welled up in tears.

The girl reached out her hands and touched Belamis face, feeling with her finger tips Belamis' eyebrows, nose, hair and face.

Belamis thought, "She was also blind..."

Then Belamis heard a sound in her mind, "Don't cry... Belamis..."

"You... you are telepathic ?" Belamis said. Medora nodded. Medora reached out both of her hands and placed them at the side of Belamis head.

Then Belamis felt everything around her vanished, and a scene was projected in her head. She saw Medora's childhood, her father died a long time ago, and Medora was with her mother... they lived together... and her mother was killed by the monsters just not long ago. When Medora's mother died, she was there hearing what happened. Medora lost her eyesight from that attack.

"Medora..." Belamis looked at her. Then Belamis saw tears rolled out of Medora's eyes.

Belamis looked at Medora, gently hugged her.

"Come.... I will protect you..." Belamis stood up, and hold Medora's hand. In Belamis mind she vowed she would protect this girl from any harm.

Belamis took Medora back to the research facilities. "Dr. Kitty... this girl is an orphan... can we take her in and .... care for her ?" Belamis asked.

"No problem..." Dr. Kitty kindly remarked.

Medora then lived in the research facilities, with Belamis taking care of her, because she was blind.

"Belamis... it is strange.... why didn't you transform ?" Dr. Kitty asked.

"...transform ?" Belamis replied.

"The previous attack by the monster... you are clearly in danger... and people around you.. me are also in danger... but strangely ... you did not transform to your giantess form..." Dr. Kitty said.

Belamis recalled, and noticed it too. "I... I don't know...."

Then Dr. Kitty hit upon an explanation, and she thought, "... is it that Belamis is resisting the transformation ?"

Dr. Kitty and assistant professor Dodge discussed.

"You mean.. Belamis is having a mental block ?" Dr. Kitty asked.

"It is not uncommon at all... if you say that Belamis blamed herself for the death of the old Queen..." Replied assistant professor Dodge.

"She is rejecting her identity as the Gariusu giantess... because being the Gariusu giantess, caused the old Queen to give her life to Belamis... " Dr. Kitty slowly said.

"This is a highly plausible explanation... from what Princess Aurora told us, Belamis was deeply traumatized ...." Said Assistant Professor Dodge.

Medora lived at the research facilities, and she tried to familiarize herself with the place by feeling her way around, with Belamis holding her hand.

Belamis took her around, and gently explaining to her the places.

"This is the main control room, this is the way out...." Belamis spoke to Medora gently, holding her hand.

Medora clung onto Belamis arms, like a girl in love with a man.

Dr. Kitty noticed it, and thought, "...she is in love with Belamis...she thought Belamis was a man..."

Indeed Belamis was very handsome, and her dark eyebrows made her look masculine, and her deep voice sometimes made it hard for others to tell if she's a woman, like that time when Kugo first encounter her.

Medora spent a lot of time with Belamis, admiring her, and in her mind she thought Belamis was her hero, her knight in shiny armor.

At the same time, Belamis projected her love to Medona, her best friend onto Medora... subconsciously redeeming herself from the sadness of losing Medona, but she did not know that Medora had other feelings.

This day everything appeared normal, when alarm sounded at the research facilities.

"Monster!!!" Belamis put on her fighting suit... "Stay with the others!! " Belamis said to Medora as she headed out. Medora was left alone, and she felt her way to the main control room, where Dr. Kitty was monitoring the battle.

It was two large monsters, one was the large T-rex like dinosaur, one was like a large lizard. Belamis leaped onto her space bike and began attacking them.

Dr. Kitty watched anxiously at the screens, showing Belamis fighting a difficult battle... the monsters clearly had more fire power, and Belamis' attack from her sword was not deterring them a bit. Medora heard everything, and tried to imagine Belamis' situation.

Medora could not see a thing, she was worried and she clutched her hands.

Belamis fought with all her might... and began to think..."No.. cannot use space sword... it was too destructive... and could also destroy the downtown area..." Her weapons were no use to them

Then the lizard tongue caught Belamis and wrapped her up. The giant lizard then spitted poisonous saliva at Belamis and hit her eyes.

"Arhh..." Instantly Belamis eyes were burnt by the corrosive fluid and could not see.

Belamis was thrown to the ground. The large dinosaur stomped on her again and again.

"Belamis!!" Dr. Kitty yelled. The monster left Belamis behind.... a large deep hole was left by the dinosaur, after repeated stomping, Belamis was there motionless.

The two monsters headed to the research facilities.

Dr. Kitty exclaimed, "Belamis' eyes were hurt... she was attacked at all sides and could not fight back!!"

Medora heard what Dr. Kitty said, and silently she felt her way out. She said to herself, "I...I have to help Belamis."

Belamis tried to walk to the research facilities even though she couldn't see a thing. Then in her heart she thought she heard Medora's cry again.

"Belamis!"

"Medora... Dr. Kitty..." Belamis thought.... yet she was unable to transform.

"My goodness... Belamis could not transform...." Thought Dr. Kitty....

Medora went out in tears, shaking as she listened to the explosions and Belamis yelling.

"Belamis... hang on!!!" Medora telepathy sent a distress call to Belamis.

"Medora..." Belamis walked, but then the large lizard spilled out flames and Belamis was engulfed in the fire.

Then suddenly, the scepter moved, breaking through the glass cupboard and landed into the hands of Medora.

"What's happening?" Dr. Kitty was astonished.

The scepter's gem was glowing, and Medora was holding it, totally confused. She only felt that there was a small short stick in her hands.

Then there was a thought appearing in Medora's mind, "The girl with Galaxy Energy, raise the scepter!"

Medora, without a second thought, hold the scepter up. A ray of light shot out from the scepter, hitting Belamis forehead and then she immediately transformed into the giantess.

Belamis roared, and flexed her muscles. Yet she couldn't see a thing. She reached out her hands, tried to feel her way forward.

Medora was blind for a long time and could use her hearing as her sight, she recognized the footsteps of Belamis, and the sound of the monster, and thus she could tell their relative positions.

"Belamis, watch your right side!" Medora telepathy voice said to Belamis.

Belamis immediately ducked, narrowing escaping the lashing by the monster's tail.

"Your left!!!" Again Medora again used her hearing to judge the position of the monster and Belamis, and used her telepathy voice to guide Belamis.

Belamis then took a deep breath... she remembered a few times she trained blindfolded with her master Nia. She listened and felt the air around her with her body....

The dinosaur spitted out flames on her, Belamis leaped and landed at the back of the monster, then she kicked the monster. Medora then guide Belamis, "The lizard is at the front left of you..."

Belamis lifted the dinosaur and threw it to the giant lizard. The giant lizard suddenly sprang forward and sank its teeth on Belamis right shoulder. Belamis struggled with it, and pulled open its jaws, the dinosaur then slashed Belamis back with its claws, and bit Belamis left shoulder. The two monsters were using their teeth and claws on Belamis, causing multiple injuries over her.

Yet Belamis was unafraid, she threw the dinosaur onto the ground, and then pulled the lizard's tongue apart. As the large dinosaur charged Belamis, Belamis heard the sound, and leaped up, then cut the dinosaur's head with her hand chop, and then she picked up the lizard, and pulled its jaws open, tearing it apart.

Belamis defeated the monsters, and was seriously wounded. She turned, as she was guided by Medora telepathy, "Belamis... we are here.... turn to your left..."

Belamis walked slowly, knelt down, and reached her right hand to the ground as Medora felt her way forward, until she touched Belamis right hand.

Belamis gently touched Medora. Medora hold up the scepter, and a beam shot at Belamis forehead, and she turned back to human size. She hugged Medora.

Medora was crying, as she moved her hands over Belamis muscular body. She did not touch Belamis breasts, all she could feel was a strong body, like a man. She rested her head against Belamis chest.

Belamis breathed heavily, and carried Medora in her arms, and said, "It's all OK..."

Belamis was lying on the bed, with bandages all on her body, and on her eyes.

"Her eyes were only slightly burnt by the monster's venom. There's no permanent damage... the bandages on her eyes could be taken off in one or two weeks. "Said Dr. Kitty.

Dr. Kitty saw what happened, especially how Medora used the scepter to cause Belamis to transform.

Belamis murmured, "Medora..." Medora held Belamis hands. Belamis stroked her hair, and gently said, "don't worry... I am OK.."

"Why did I transform ?" Belamis asked.

"Medora did it.. .with the scepter..." Dr. Kitty replied.

"The scepter ?" Belamis was astonished.

Belamis realized there were implications. Only a person with Galaxy Energy could use the scepter, the old Queen was one, Princess Aurora was another.

After several days of examining Medora, Dr. Kitty said to Belamis, "Medora is an unusual girl. She has telepathy powers, and moreover... she is like Princess Aurora.... she could emit and amply Galaxy Energy like her..."

"Medora...." Belamis remarked.

"...and like the old Queen and also Princess Aurora, she has the power to use the scepter ... to summon the Gariusu giantess... so that day... she hold the scepter at you, and you transformed..." Continued Dr. Kitty.

"... you.. subconsciously refuse to change to your giantess form.. so even the control unit inside your head is not blocking you.. you still do not transform..." Dr. Kitty said.

Belamis laid on the bed, and said, "..... I... I .... cannot live with this identity as the Gariusu giantess... because of this... the old Queen died for me...". Belamis was saddened as she spoke.

Dr. Kitty said, "... yet ... Galaxy Energy, Earth... your loved ones needed your protection... and Medora needed your protection... she could well be the next queen at the Great Planet...."

Belamis was in deep thought, "Medora.... "

Belamis injuries healed gradually, but she still had bandages over her eyes. Belamis hated to stay in bed, and she struggled to get out. Medora held her hand.

"It's OK... can you just hold my hand and lead the way for me..." Belamis asked. Medora nodded, and then helped Belamis up.

Belamis smiled, "Though you are blind, but you now can lead me because you are used to find your way in total blindness here..."

"I must recover soon..." Belamis thought.

Medora lead Belamis to the open, and let Belamis felt the fresh air.

"Medora...." Belamis spoke slowly..."I will protect you.... like I protect Dr. Kitty... but I must overcome my mental block of not able to transform..."

To Belamis, it was strange feeling - now like the old Queen, Medora had the ability to use the scepter on her. In a way she was now like the old Queen and Princess Aurora. Yet in a strange way, Medora was vulnerable, and in Belamis' heart she was like her own little sister.

Medora affection to Belamis increased, as she hold Belamis hand tight.

"Medora... please... don't use the scepter to transform me..." Belamis said.

Medora gasped, she knew if Belamis could not transform she would be killed.

"I have to overcome this.... and when I hear you cry for help...calling me... I will be there for you...I promise..." Belamis said.

Medora wept, and little did she know that her love to Belamis would not be reciprocated.